NF – HOPE

ان‌اف‌ – امید

Hope
I’m on my way, I’m coming
Don’t, don’t lose faith in me
I know you been waitin’
I know you been prayin’ for my soul
Hope, hope

30 years you been draggin’ your feet
Tellin’ me I’m the reason we’re stagnant
30 years you’ve been claimin’ your rightness
And promisin’ progress, but where’s it at?
I don’t want you to feel like a failure (Failure)
I know this hurts (Hurts)
But I gave you your chance to deliver (Deliver)
But now it’s my time
Don’t get me wrong, nature had a great run
But it’s time to give the people somethin’ different
So without further ado, I’d like to introduce my
My album, my album, my album, my album, my album, my album, my album
Hope
What’s my dеfinition of success? (Success)
Listening to what your heart says (Heart says)
Standing up for what you know is
Right, whilе everybody else is
Tucking their tail between their legs (Okay)
What’s my definition of success? (Success)
Creating something no one else could (Else could)
Bein’ great enough to dream big (Big)
Grindin’ when you’re told to just quit (Quit)
Givin’ more when you got nothin’ left (Left)
It’s a person that I’ll take a chance on
Somethin’ they were told could never happen
It’s a person that can see the bright side through the dark time swhen there ain’t one
It’s someone who ain’t never had nothin’
Not afraid to walk away from more perfect
‘Cause they rather do somethin’ they really lovin’ than takin’ a paycut
It’s person who would never waiver
Or change who they are
Just to try to gain some credibility
So they could feel accepted by a stranger
It’s a person who that take the failures in their life and turn them into motivation
It’s believin’ in yourself when no one else does, it’s amazing
What a little bit of faith can’t do if you don’t even believe in you
Why would you think or expect anbody else around you to?
I done did thing I regret
I done said things I can’t take back
Was a lost soul at a cross road with no hope but I changed that
I spent years on my life holdin’ on to things I never shouldn’t have kept, full of hatred
Years on my life carryin’ a lot of baggage that I should’ve walked away from
Years on my life wishin’ I was someone different, lookin’ for some validation
Years of my life tryna fill the void, pretending I was in–
They get it
Growing pain’s a necessary evil
Difficult to go through, yes, but beneficial
Some would say having a mental breakdown is a negative thing which is something I agree with
On the other hand was the push I needed to get help I needed and start the healing process
If I never hit rock bottom
Would I be the person I am today?
I don’t believe so
I’m a perfect example of what happens when you choose to not accept defeat and face your demons
It took me thirty years to realize if you want to get the opportunity to be the greatest version of yourself
Sometimes you got to be someone you’re not to hear the voice of reason
Having kids will make you really take a step back and really look in the mirror
At least for me that’s what it did, I

[Part II]

Wake up every day and pick my son up
Hold him in my arms
And let him know he’s loved (loved)
Standing by the window questioning if dad is ever going to show up (up)
Isn’t something he’s goin’ to have to worry about
Don’t get it twisted
That wasn’t a shot
Mama I forgive you
I just don’t want him to grow up thinkin’ that he’ll never be enough
30 years of feeling
30 years of searching
30 years of hurting
30 years of pain
30 years of fearful
30 years of anger
30 years of empty
30 years of shame
30 years of broken
30 years of anguish
30 years of hopeless
30 years of hate
30 years of never
30 years of maybe
30 years of later
30 years of fake
30 years of hollow
30 years of sorrow
30 years of darkness
30 years of hate
30 years of baggage
30 years of sadness
30 years of stagnant
30 years of change
30 years of anxious
30 years of suffering
30 years of torment
30 years of hate
30 years of bitter
30 years of lonely
30 years of questioning everyone away
You’ll never evolve
I know I can change
We are not enough
We are not the same
You don’t have the heart
You don’t have the strength
You don’t have the will
You don’t have the faith
You’ll never be loved
You’ll never be safe
I just wanna give up
Not running away
You don’t have the guts
You’re the one afraid
I’m the one in charge (No)
I’m taking the
I’m taking the
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