John Connor – Love Always

جان کونور – لاو الویز

Ain’t it crazy how life go
How we stuck on this lifeboat
How we swimming and paddling
Hoping that we can just get to the right note
Man this can get shit can get
Spiteful, so we turn to a bible or a rifle
Searching and praying for answers
When we don’t even know where life go?
They told me to try a little tenderness
They said that what you give is what you get
But I don’t know if I believe that shit
Because you had my heart and then you dipped
You slidin off my friends list
You did that shit you meant it
Do not try to flip it
It’s wicked, it’s written in stone
Can’t take that shit back
Now I’m cryin’ all alone
You made my heart crack
I don’t even check my phone
No purple heart and no snaps
Feel like everywhere I go I can’t escape what happened
What’s happening?
Two times this week, I’ve seen you in my dreams
Don’t have a place to go where I can try to find peace or be me
Don’t be mistaken when you’re listening this song is not for you
Just hold me, just hold me
This is for me, ’cause I believe that I can grieve my way to truth
Just hold me, just hold me
Maybe there’s a reason why we seem to suffer in our youth
Just hold me, just hold me
But I’m still dreaming of the feeling back when it was me and you
Just hold me, just hold me
I hope you know you hurt me
I hope you know I’m cryin’
When you said you don’t deserve me
And pulled off in the night
And now my family’s gettin worried, say they see it in my eyes
Because I’m lonely and uncertain if I’m gonna be alright I tell ’em
A week ago I’m chillin’ just writing another song
About a girl I had a vision and dreamed her singing along
She was my world and then it all fell to the ground and I was wrong
Did I do this to myself? I had to call her on the phone, yeah
Wondering what you gonna tell ya friends and ya family
How you fucked another dude
How you handle it?
Are you in pain when you flex on the gram and shit
Or does it break your heart when I’m not there with ya
Said you never knew how much you would care for me
Since the day I met you thought you’d be there for me
Being alone really never was rare for me
Being in love was something I was scared to be
Never forget the night when you was drivin’ away
New whip, new girl there was nothing that I could say
You were pleading, kinda cryin’, couldn’t really read your brain
Feel like a bullet hit my lungs and the air was replaced with pain
Don’t be mistaken when you’re listening this song is not for you
Just hold me, just hold me
This is for me, ’cause I believe that I can grieve my way to truth
Just hold me, just hold me
Maybe there’s a reason why we seem to suffer in our youth
Just hold me, just hold me
But I’m still dreaming of the feeling back when it was me and you
Just hold me, just hold me
Talkin’ to my pops, wish you were here right now
Wish you could hold me down and catch my tears right now
Because I’m lonely and I know that you could heal my frown
It’s true, it’s you
It’s been hard to open up since I lost you I lost trust
I was scared that I knew anyone could leave me in the dust
I’m not talking about you, I’m really talkin’ bout us
When it all falls down that’s when I need to look up, but
I told her I love her and when I blow up imma bring her backstage
Now I’m stuck wondering why the fuck we can’t back to that day
But you gon’ remember what you did if this kid could ever catch fame
‘Cause you were the first girl I loved
But you still made my damn heartbreak
Gave her everything I had, she was different from the last
Bought her roses by the bag, now they dyin’ in her lap
Had to say it in a rap, know I’ll never bring you back
Shoulda know from my past that nothing’s ever built to last
Don’t be mistaken when you’re listening this song is not for you
Just hold me, just hold me
This is for me, ’cause I believe that I can grieve my way to truth
Just hold me, just hold me
Maybe there’s a reason why we seem to suffer in our youth
Just hold me, just hold me
But I’m still dreaming of the feeling back when it was me and you
Just hold me, just hold me